Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with severe pain around one eye that persists for several hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Nicholas Harrison
Nicholas Harrison

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